Justice

When I was a kid, my mom once told me that I had one of the biggest senses of justice that she had ever seen. I didn't care if things made sense, but they had to be fair. I'm not sure why I remember that conversation, because I'm pretty sure I was pretty young, but I do. Maybe it is because to this day, it's been one of the truest things anyone has said about me and my personality. Lots of people have tried to figure me out, it's like a game they play, the "Let's figure out Chelsea Game." Apparently its a difficult game, or so I've been told. But that doesn't stop people from telling me things about my personality. Most times I smile and say something unimportant while thinking, "If only you knew..."

But this one statement, this one analysis of my personality, I never questioned. Because I know it's true. Things are supposed to be the way that they are supposed to be. But they're not. And that bothers me.

But I don't know how they are supposed to be.

I don't know the way that the world should be, but this is not the way. I don't know why people die, but they aren't supposed to. I don't know why children go hungry while I pick at my cafeteria food and grumble about how it tastes, but I do know it shouldn't be like that. I know that Christians should love each other and care for their enemies, but things aren't going the way they were intended to go. I can't understand the purpose for the uneasiness that I feel every time one of my friends gets themselves into a situation that, as far as I can see, will only end in heartache, but I do understand that love shouldn't be something to be feared.

All this bothers me. I hate it. Because it's not fair.

But I find hope in one thing. Christ, my Savior, he thought things shouldn't be the way they were either. He condemned those who were exploiting the weak. He fed the hungry. He healed the sick and he sought the lost. He gave us a new way to live, a new standard to aspire to and he gives us the strength to make things the way they should be. He gives us comfort for those times that we think things can't get worse and peace when our hearts are troubled. And in the end, he will make everything right.

Because that's the way things are supposed to be.