Honesty

I'm not doing homework right now. I should be. I have to preach in class in less than two weeks and I have lots to do between now and then. I just feel very little motivation.

I don't mind preaching. In fact, the couple of times I've done it, I've enjoyed it actually. Having the reason to dig that deeply into scripture is just neat. I should do it more often, just for fun, but frankly I don't have the time. Having said that, the idea of preaching in class, with people grading me, judging me, well, it freaks me out. Especially after being totally intimidated in class today. The second guy who spoke did so with such eloquence, such honesty. It was refreshing. He deftly used his own story and compared it to Scripture to make his point and he did it ingeniously. It was neither too intelligent and lofty, nor too personal and shallow. I understand that I should not compare myself, but I was blown away. I noticed before he got up that he was holding his papers in his hand and they were shaking. I guess even the most talented and respected among us get nervous at the prospect of honesty in front of their peers.